I try to finish a puzzle. This puzzle is made of triangles. But My pieces are squares. It is mathematical and geometrical impossible to finish this puzzle. Except, I sacrifice a Piece of my square and cut a Corner.
And you know what? I cut those Corner. But still I don’t fit in. And I know that I never will. Is it wrong to tell someone, how much you miss a Person? We see on social media and everywhere that millions of People wish that someone is telling them “I miss you” – “I Love You” – “You are my Everything” And if Someone does this finally, then how it Comes that they call this Person as clinchy or weak or take them for granted?Why it is wrong to talk about Feelings openly? Why ? In Turkey we say “the one who runs, get haunted”
I never run. I never give a Person the Feeling I am something better. I always admitted my Feelings. always told my love, worked hard for my relationship and sacrificed without thinking that a man should run after a Girl. Being accepted is so rare. I never wanted give a human the Feeling that someone has to chase for me, because I am not something better than him. quite the contrary I feel honored that this Person wants to share something with me. That this Person sees something worthy in my poor existence. I can’t force someone to love me. I can’t force anyone to miss me, to call me, to write me, or to make me to his priority in his life.
I know I am somewhere there in his heart. But I can’t Claim a bigger part than the small room, which is given to me. And you know, IT HURTS DAMN…
he once said to me “You are hard to manage but still I bear you” I don’t know if someone ever said such disrespectful Thing to me. Even now while writing those lines I feel ashamed that all of you will read this.
I am really that unbearable? Maybe… but at least I am worth it because in the end I give unconditional love and respect.
When you are in relationship with someone, then isn’t it my right to expect some icky stuff…
obviously it is nowadays.
Am I childish for expecting romance? A husband can tell his wife his love or a lover to his beloved one… there is nothing wrong!
What will safe us in this destroyed world, when not love?